Winter Break Blog Up

Now Playing: Landon Pigg - Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop


Hmmm, so I haven't blogged for a while now! Well lets see. Break is finally here, and It's pretty awesome. I'm pretty stress free, after my birthday party. It seems like everything is going for the better now. The birthday party was hella stressful, but in the end, it was fun! Sorry if i didn't invite some people! I was really limited. It was fun though. I realized that day how much i love my family and friends. I think if I were a girl, I would actually cry. Damn, it was awesome.

Christmas is in about 10 minutes, but it'll probably christmas one i submit this blog. What do you do on Christmas anyways, other give out presents? Seems pretty plain. Anyways, I can't wait. Alot of things are around the corner, and I look forward to New Years especially. Woo! :]

Mucho Sicko

Now Playing: The Pussycat Dolls - I Hate This Part


FAIL. I am sick. Everyone is basically sick. Stupid cold. It's been killing me, so much so that I missed zero period for the first time today. Just great! Also, there's a concert assembly tomorrow! I cannot sing. Ugh dammit.

Yesterday was just...tiring and wild. Everything strangely came out for the best, except for some certain things. It was hella awesome, and now I'm looking forward to winterball! Woohoo!

I was talking to steven the other day in class, when he mentions a duct tape dress. I was a little confused, but when he explained it to me, I got really interested. Basically, there is a contest where people have to make prom dresses out of duct tape. I googled it and saw the dresses. It's amazing what some people can do on their free time. You can check it out at . I want to try :).

The Cold is Coming

Now Playing: Maroon 5 - Won't Go Home Without You

So many people are getting sick recently, and I have a feeling I'm going to catch it pretty soon. So far I only have a sore throat, which slightly affects my singing. I hope tomorrow won't be affected by this, because tomorrow is the winter concert. I've been spamming the vitamin C pills everyday to build up my immune system. I wonder if it actually works.

Also! Tomorrow isn't just important because of concert. I'm asking someone to winterball tomorrow! woo. Hopefully she doesn't read this before tomorrow! :P.

Now. Changing subjects. Cindy brought up something that hasn't struck me recently until today. We sat in her car waiting for the red light to change, when she said, "You know, you only have about two weeks". I didn't know what she meant at first, but eventually, I got the hint. She was talking about 2nd semester ASB. So the question for myself is..."Should I run for ASB Vice-President with Cindy next semester?". I'm pretty sure If I do, I would most likely run as vice-president, because It's much less stressful, and throughout my partnership with Cindy, I had always took the higher role. Now is her turn.

I've been debating about this for the past year now, and I seem to be clueless still. On the positive side, if i run, I will live senior year with no regrets. I will look back upon this year and say, I made the most out of it. I experienced the pinnacle of success within ASB, and I will graduate with the recognition of being Vice President. I will have the opportunity to organize events and present new ideas to the table, and compared to other positions in ASB, I will have the ability to make certain changes.

However, theres alot of negatives to this position as well. First of all, I will be doing announcements, which I will hate, because people will hear my voice every day. I will also be required to stay after school and stay obligated to the club. Certain events require me to go certain places, and I might not be able to get there without driving. I hope I get my car soon. I will have to coordinate with Mrs. Bobadilla in a much more personal level, which will be a challenge, maybe at first. The actions I make will be seen school wide as well. With this new obligation, comes much more work, and much less free time. I might not be able to participate in the musical this year. The final negative of course, if my collaboration with others. (Cindy should know this). It is a proven fact that every time I work with Cindy in a leadership position, We will end up arguing and possibly hating each other at the end of it. This has happened sophomore year, as well as junior year. So the question of whether or not I would risk the friendship I have with Cindy or not also comes up.

This is a difficult subject. I am still clueless, and I've been pushing this question aside for a whole year now. Today, I talked to Donald about it, and he felt that I should go for it. It is true that I am seeing the little problems in the position, but I am still afraid. I have two weeks. Whether I decide to jump off the cliff, or get killed by the wolf known as regret, is entirely up to me. Two weeks. Two weeks of much debating.

Trust is Priceless

Now Playing: The Fray - Look After You


Wow, so I wouldn't expect this to happen. You know how you'd think that all those childish things that troubled us, such as trusting people to not tell your secrets, are thing of the past after high school? Well, I guess it's not true for me. Today, I have realized how immature people are still, and how trust should be something someone gains only through hard work. Recently, I seem to have lost a good amount of people who I can trust. Those who I have lost connection with seemed to just be simple friends that I would joke with, but never tell serious matters to. As of right now, there is only 3 trustworthy people in my life (family not included).

Right now, my senioritis is kicking in. I don't want to go to school, and I especially do not feel the need to socialize with friends, except for a few. It is true how they say "it gets better after high school", and basically, I am waiting for the time to come. What i dread the most out of senior year is also my lasting impression on the school. I have half a year to survive, and make sure I do not do something stupid to end up regretting senior year. Sorry about the cliche "I hate high school" attitude on this blog, but I am pretty pissed right now.

If i have anything to learn from today, It's the value of trust. I have decided to analyze the situation carefully before saying anything. By the way, the song is really ironic. 'Look After You'. Hah.

. . . Now What, Senioritis?

Now Playing: Must Be Dreaming - Frou Frou


I just submitted my UC apps on Friday...or rather Saturday Morning. I applied to Berkeley, Los Angeles, San Diego, Irvine, and Santa Barbara. During the last minute, I applied to Cal State Los Angeles. The majors seem really diverse, and I have no clue which one I should choose. I chose economics in most of the colleges, unless there's an architecture major available. Chances are, I'm going to change majors during the GE part of my college life. For now, I am just waiting for the acceptance, which is hella scary.

So is this when senioritis is supposed to kick in? I kind of feel like it is, but then again, I was lazy since sophomore year. The semester isn't over yet either, so I still have to focus on maintaining my GPA for now. After Thanksgiving break, everything seems much more relaxed, although midterms are coming up. Let's hope I don't get hit hard with Senioritis anytime soon.

Sixth Period now is my worst class ever. :{

Winterball Changes People!

Music Commentary: Dude, seriously. This song just describes everything thats going on right now. I'm pretty goddamn confused about stuff, and it's been causing me to ignore the last steps of my UC Apps.

Anyways, Black Friday was definitely a killer. I realized how useless this sale is, cause I spent as much as I usually spent on clothes on regular shopping days. Next year, I will definitely not go to Black Friday. I'd rather just go shop online. Besides, I'll be in college next year, which means I'll have a credit card to shop online! woo!

Alot of things have been bothering me. Well, mainly one thing. Alot of which is tied to Winterball. The stupid dance seems to be changing people, and causing quite a bit of useless "drama" within the school. I am also a victim of this upcoming event. This event has brought me into a situation that requires me to face a difficult decision which is result in much regret, despite my choice. Nonetheless, I have made the decision already, and I am just waiting for the right time to come. I just hope that the consequences for my choices will not be that severe. (Sorry for being so vague on this entry).

Final note. Twilight sucks. Don't watch it, don't watch it, DON'T WATCH IT.

Funds Funds Funds.

Now Playing: So Close - Jon McLaughlin
Music Commentary: You know there's always that person you think of in the past, when you hear that certain song? Well, guess what? This is one of em. It seemed like just yesterday, but a lot has changed in the past 3 years. Fairy tales, Musicals, Fantasies, The What If, Music, and the Change. All these are summed up in this song, and this basically sums up that nostalgic past. Sorry, I'm being cheesy. Good song though!


Money is indeed evil. I somehow survived today with only one dollar, just enough to get myself a bag of funyuns. Anyhow, my birthday is coming up, and I think I found a location for the party, thanks to BLac. His uncle owns a restaurant, which has a kickass upstairs private room. He offered me to room, which fits approximately 50 people, a DJ system, all you can eat food (did i mention it was sushi?), drinks, and they're open until 1am. Holy cow, that's a great deal...except, it sums up to approximately 1500 dollars. That's about 30 bucks per person. I am planning to charge 10 bucks per person already, but this is still alot for a teenager. I really hope I can somehow afford this.

To add to my fees, I have winterball to worry about as well. I already saw the first wave of proposals come by this week. It seems everyone is rushing to find that person and ask them to winterball as soon as possible. I, on the other hand, seem to be procrastinating these things. It's most likely because of UC applications that causes me to procrastinate about winterball. Although I haven't put much thought about it, I already have that special someone in mind. I am about 80% sure that I will ask her, and I have already figured how to. I really hope she doesn't get asked, or my plan turns for the worse. I also found out something big might happen tomorrow, but not to me. Although what might happen tomorrow might make me depressed, I really want it to happen. It's an opportunity to focus my thoughts more.

Its strange. Recently, I feel as though I am completely different from my old self. I feel as though I am much more annoying to myself. The things I do without thought seem to me as though they're what I usually don't do. I really hope I don't become something I hate.

Twilight Craze

Now Playing: The Christmas Song - Owl City


The song is The Christmas Song by Owl City. Seems like the popularity of the band if slowly growing. Since Christmas is nearing, this is something that seems proper to get the mood going. Enjoy! (I really want to do this song for winter concert...this or My December by Linkin Park)

Every time I hear a bunch of girls talk, there is usually a chance of them mentioning something about Twilight, especially this week. I have no idea what the story is about, only that it has vampires and werewolves. Some girls are actually in love with the main character, from what I've heard. It kind of gets me, when they fall in love with a character created by a writer, that has no physical entity. Twilight is just yet another item that falls in the category along with Jonas Brothers and Michael Phelps. It's humorous to set aim away messages insulting these things. So far, I've gotten over 5 IM's from girls regarding my "Twilight=Lame :]" away message. Very cool.

So instead of going to watch Twilight on its premiere night, I went to watch Bolt's premiere (In 3d!). Definitely worth watching. It has its comedic and its adorable moments. I would say it is comparable to Finding Nemo (which they reference during the movie). I highly suggest going for 3d, although it hurt the eyes at times. It makes it almost 3x more realistic, and the glasses they give you are quite fashionable! I love the pigeons in the movie the most. *SPOILER* Different pigeons appear throughout the movie, for each state that Bolt stops by. Every pigeon holds stereotypical traits for that state. Unfortunately, Californian pigeons are shown in a really homosexual way. It's hilarious, but quite sad that our state is the not-so-straight state. *END SPOILER*. I'd say this is way better than Twilight, any day (which I have not yet watched :]).

Horrible morning today. Took the biology test, which I failed in (13 out of 34). Ouch. I took the Statistics test, which I did fairly decent on. The rest of the day went by unnoticed. Today is definitely a day that I will probably overlook in future-reminiscings, except for some key happenings. Tomorrow will be a wild day. Tim's birthday outing, as well as my nephew and neice's. How fun.

If Only The World had One Perspective.

Now Playing: Can I Wait? - Jason Harwell


*Warning: Rant Entry*
Ever met someone and believes they were a certain type of person, but over time, seemed to morph into someone completely different? Yeah, I hate when that happens, and yeah, I think its happening to me :/. It may be paranoia, or it may actually be true, but whenever I realize someone is completely different from their true nature, it really makes me feel disappointed. Ironic, because right now in Senior Seminar, we are reading Macbeth, and a strong theme in the play is "Whats fair is foul, and whats foul is fair". It really gets me, when I can't see a person's true self, but then again, I guess there's that paranoia inside all of us that makes us think we're not really seeing someones true self, and over analyzes certain things.
*End Rant*

Today was pretty...disappointing. I sat with Angeline, Steven, Alex, and Hansen at volcanoes in an attempt to study Statistics, but I found myself unable to do so. Despite my efforts, I just couldn't start studying. That kinda made me frustrated. Also, my birthday's coming up, which means I gotta plan something. I hate planning celebrations, especially because you always know that there's always a screw up in the process. Alot of things are really bothering me tonight.

I need a super soaker.

Now Playing : Universal Mind Control - Common



People raid my house way too much. :/. So i went surfin' for a super soaker just to combat the forces of house raiders. Well, turns out there's alot of them. Some kids are just crazy (like the one in the picture). I think the best was the Super Soaker C4100, or something like that. I swear, I need to get one of these.

So my birthday is coming up in approximately 29 days. Dang, and then I'm gonna be 18 years old. Amazing. I feel like a old sack of crap. My cousin and I are trying to plan out a party, by renting out a place and hiring a DJ, but alot of places are booked. I've asked around, and the only place that seems possible right now is an American legion post in Alhambra. Yeah, an American legion post. They're the same guys that took me to boy's state. I wonder if that'll give me a discount or something, heh. Hopefully, if i can find the location, then I can start of the decorations, catering, dj, etc. I hope this goes out well.

Everything has been alright recently (First post that has something personal in it!). Seems like something great is going to happen, but then again its winter. Winter has always been the time where I find myself in a new relationship with someone. It's been a pattern for the past 3 year so far. Bad thing about it is, it usually ends up with drama, pain, and regret by the end of January or February, if I'm lucky. For some reason, I've been inclined to change how I act, recently, and I'm not entirely sure if its for the better, or for the worse. I could say it's because I'm growing up, but then again, It seems like I'm growing down too. I just hope It's for the better. I've also been able to resolve much of the problems that I had previously faced a month or two ago, which is good! I just hope this winter will be memorable, for better or for worse.

Pollute the Sky Much?

Now Playing : Cue The Sun - Daphne Loves Derby

The picture sums it all up. The sky was pretty bad today. It felt as though it was twilight, all day. I did not even bother to go out, that's how bad it was. A fire during fall. Wow, imagine this upcoming summer! I want to get the hell out of California as soon as possible. Especially with the expectancy of a huge earthquake! California is going straight down to hell, at this rate :/.

Recession Sucks

Now Playing : Bouunce - Timbaland


It pretty much sucks to realize how broke you are, and how little you can do about it. It kind of hit me tonight, after finishing my essay for Senior Seminar English. I hit the ctrl+p key and then the window popped up telling me I was out of paper. Absolutely no paper. No plain white sheet of paper for my essay to print on. I went around the house to look for some, but no luck. I then had to resort to scavenging for paper in homework binders from previous school years. After I found three sheets (just enough to suffice), I was greeted with yet another message. I was out of ink. Not a problem! I have three printers! Unfortunately, all three were out of ink. So, I went looking for some ink, but no luck again! After an hour of scavenging, I gave up and asked someone to print the essay for me. I hate asking people to print things for me. Why? Because it annoys me when people do the same to me. Sure, it only takes a couple seconds, but now you're responsible for bringing their work to school, and making sure it's correctly formatted and everything. It's really a pain in the ass.

After dealing with the lack of school supplies, I looked over a list of financial debts I had to pay off. The list was endless. Acappella Fees, School Supply Fees, College Fees, Drivers License Fees, Food Fees, Friend Fees, Club Fees, Christmas Fees, Clothes Fees, blah blah blah. I would estimate that I need well over 2 thousand dollars or more to pay off all these, temporarily. It's nearly impossible to find the money to pay these things off as well! I have a savings account, which would only pay off half of the debt, if anything, but it wasn't intended to pay for these debts! Also, work is impossible to get now, especially with 7 classes, and 4 clubs to maintain. Talk about a stressful senior year! I guess you can say the recession totally hit me hard. Let's just hope financial aid kicks in soon, and helps me enough to get by.

The Taboo Word is Winterball

Now Playing :
Love In This Club Part II - Usher feat. Beyonce & Lil Wayne


You know it's coming, and you know you've been making a list. I'm not talking about Christmas, but rather Winterball. It has often popped up in my mind about this annual event. Everyone gets so pumped for this event, that it seems to me that it has the ability to change people. Its quite common for a person to consider several people as potential dates, half a year to a year prior to the dance (unless you're already set with someone). Now once you've found your potential date, it's time to build a relationship with them. Notice that the driving force is already caused from Winterball. Now, it is also common to see people completely change personalities as this huge event draws near. Within the week of ticket sales, its quite easy to notice that some people become much more "open" to their peers. All this just for a 5 hour night event. Quite interesting. I'm not saying that I am different from these individuals, but rather, I'm trying to point this out. Winterball. . . it sure has alot of power over people.

Anyways, joy! Tomorrow is late-start, but unfortunately I have zero period. That means breakfast time for me! I'll be gone at sixth period as well, because of ASB Winterball Committee Meetings too! To top things off, there's a drill tomorrow. . . a very long one. So basically, a late start, which shortens class time, plus a really long drill, which furthers shortens class time, and another plus from not going to sixth period equals little to no school! What a joyous week!

House Raiders & Late Night Cafes

Now Playing: Miss Independent - Ne-Yo


It's been on my mind for awhile now, and I guess I finally got around to making one. Yet another blog attempt, made my yours truly. If I were to count, I'd say i made about 5 or more blogs already, all of which were abandoned. So what makes this blog account so different? nothing at all, but one can try.

A four day weekend, just what I've been looking for. It seems to me that this is actually the first time I've actually gotten days off from school. The past 4 four days felt ... unreal, or rather, unnoticeable. I guess you can say it passed by so quickly, and in such a subtle way, that it felt as though this 4 day weekend was quite short.

Does anyone ever get that strange feeling when friends come over to your house unexpectedly? Its the feeling that you are obliged as the host to entertain your guests as much as possible, by offering means of entertainment through movies, games, etc. It pretty happened to me. Its quite strange, whenever friends come over, I cannot simply continue doing what I usually do at home, be it using the computer, playing guitar, playing the piano, or watching TV. It's as though people have come over to observe what you do. It was quite weird, but I'm not saying it's bad to have friends over.

Cafes are great, especially if you go to one late at night. I think that's what cafes are meant for. Its been a great way to socialize with friends, and eat a late night dinner. I don't know about you, but it seems to me that you put more feelings into your words during the night. Just my opinion.