College Life Begins!

Finally, college life officially begins. Today is the day when I first go to class. It is currently 9:03 AM in the morning, and my class will begin at 10:00AM. I am lucky to even have such a late schedule. I woke up at 7:30 however, to eat breakfast and refresh myself before going to my first class, which is Math 16A.

The past few days have been really busy, with events organized by clubs that are hoping for you to join. Socializing seems to be quite common here in Berkeley, because one-fourth of the students are newcomers looking for a inner circle of friends. I, myself, have met quite an abundant amount of people. Sadly, when meeting these new students, I find myself forgetting their names almost immediately. Faces are much more recognizable. People at Berkeley are very social, and are very well mannered. They have great tolerance and one can easily keep a conversation with them.

What I'm most worried about right now is the men's chorale auditions taking place this afternoon. I do not know what music piece to sing, nor what they are expecting. I am music illiterate, and I tend to do worse under an audience. I am crossing my fingers and hoping that I would make it.

My parents have been calling me alot, perhaps three times a day. I do miss them, but there are alot of events going on at Berkeley. It is really hard to even be at my dorm before 11PM. I miss everyone in Rosemead, but I don't really have the time to contact them or anything. It's hard to open up time for such things as that, though I know I should. On occasion, however, I have had friends text me, asking how I am and everything. Its great to get those texts, despite the little responses that I text back with.

Anyhow, Berkeley is indeed a refreshing and beautiful campus filled with life. I wouldn't be surprised if I end up whining when Thanksgiving or Christmas comes around. Then again, I do that when I go from Rosemead to Berkeley as well. Anyhow, classes begin soon, so I will end my blog now.

The Day the Plot Thickens

Here was the plan. I was supposed to wake up at 1pm, and start driving to her house. I would then pick her up from her house and then take her to Huntington Library without her knowing, and it being her first time. After a hard and long walk around the gardens, all the while taking pictures and looking at the flowers, we would sit at a secluded area underneath a big tree of some sort. I would then give her the gift that she had not noticed that I was holding that whole time. When she opens it, it would be a jar, with a note and a star necklace in it. I would say some cheesy line, and we would sit under the tree for several minutes. The sun would eventually go down, and I'd take her to dinner. After dinner I would drive her to the mountains and we would watch the city lights, and I would hold her tightly. That was how I hoped it would end up.

Not necessarily the case. Here's what really happened. I picked her up at 1:30pm, after waiting for my mom to run errands with her car. I drove her to Huntington Library, which turns out she went to before. She gave me directions to even drive there. When we got off, she saw me hold the gift and asked me what it was. I told her to wait. We walked around the gardens and eventually I just gave her the gift. She sat down in a crowded area, saw a glimpse of it, and closed it. We walked several more minutes until she found a secluded area and finally opened it completely. It was the gift I had described. She put it on and we continued exploring. It came time to leave, but the sun was still up. She was not hungry either. I ended up taking her to eat some shaved ice. Afterwards, we went to a market to look at stores and videos. We ended up at quicklys, where she ate popcorn chicken and drank boba. We went to my car, and hugged for awhile. Then I drove her to 88 steps, and showed her a slightly decent view of the city. I eventually dropped her home.

So the note says...

"I hate looking at the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without me"
Remember those reasons listed as to why I love you? Well there's more of those than there are stars.
Remember me. Wait for me. Keep loving me. I will be back.
Always and Forever, Jesse.

Despite how off my plan was, I think I am happy with the day. I spent it with her, and that's just what I wanted. So I will not be able to see her for four months. I won't know if she will change or anything. I can only hear her voice on the telephone. The only thing I can do is live through these hard times. Despite how hard it is, I realize now that our relationship is strong enough to survive such a distance. There was one thing that I had forgotten to say to her today though. It was not 'I love you' or 'I will miss you'. I knew it was the day, and I planned to say it. It just crossed my mind. I wanted to say...

Happy 5 months.
3.21.09

The Distance.

2 Weeks exactly until I leave for good. The oncoming date is steadily approaching, and each day builds up more tension. I miss her dearly. I feel as though I am growing apart from her, but in truth, I am growing too attached. I don't know what to do. This tension has brought forth frustration and anger. I get mad at the littlest things. I believe it is truly best if I become less attached, and not try to see her. I don't know what is the best thing to do. Should I spend every waking moment with her before I leave, or avoid the hardship and pain, and keep the distance? That I don't know.

<3 Kim So Eun

So I was watching Boys Before Flowers, because my girl kept talking about it. It seemed interesting, despite the fact that I knew the storyline already. So around episode 6, one particular character caught my eye. Her name is Ga Eul, and she is extremely cute! I told Yiqian about it and turns out she agreed. Hah, awkward. :X.But not she tops my list of cutest celebrities! Go Kim So Eun FIGHTING! <3>

Oh and yes, this blog post is very asian indeed.