The Day the Plot Thickens

Here was the plan. I was supposed to wake up at 1pm, and start driving to her house. I would then pick her up from her house and then take her to Huntington Library without her knowing, and it being her first time. After a hard and long walk around the gardens, all the while taking pictures and looking at the flowers, we would sit at a secluded area underneath a big tree of some sort. I would then give her the gift that she had not noticed that I was holding that whole time. When she opens it, it would be a jar, with a note and a star necklace in it. I would say some cheesy line, and we would sit under the tree for several minutes. The sun would eventually go down, and I'd take her to dinner. After dinner I would drive her to the mountains and we would watch the city lights, and I would hold her tightly. That was how I hoped it would end up.

Not necessarily the case. Here's what really happened. I picked her up at 1:30pm, after waiting for my mom to run errands with her car. I drove her to Huntington Library, which turns out she went to before. She gave me directions to even drive there. When we got off, she saw me hold the gift and asked me what it was. I told her to wait. We walked around the gardens and eventually I just gave her the gift. She sat down in a crowded area, saw a glimpse of it, and closed it. We walked several more minutes until she found a secluded area and finally opened it completely. It was the gift I had described. She put it on and we continued exploring. It came time to leave, but the sun was still up. She was not hungry either. I ended up taking her to eat some shaved ice. Afterwards, we went to a market to look at stores and videos. We ended up at quicklys, where she ate popcorn chicken and drank boba. We went to my car, and hugged for awhile. Then I drove her to 88 steps, and showed her a slightly decent view of the city. I eventually dropped her home.

So the note says...

"I hate looking at the stars because I look at the same ones as you do, without me"
Remember those reasons listed as to why I love you? Well there's more of those than there are stars.
Remember me. Wait for me. Keep loving me. I will be back.
Always and Forever, Jesse.

Despite how off my plan was, I think I am happy with the day. I spent it with her, and that's just what I wanted. So I will not be able to see her for four months. I won't know if she will change or anything. I can only hear her voice on the telephone. The only thing I can do is live through these hard times. Despite how hard it is, I realize now that our relationship is strong enough to survive such a distance. There was one thing that I had forgotten to say to her today though. It was not 'I love you' or 'I will miss you'. I knew it was the day, and I planned to say it. It just crossed my mind. I wanted to say...

Happy 5 months.
3.21.09