Time to Grow Up?

Well, here I am yet again, blogging about my life after not updating this for months. I guess it's better if I naturally blog about things, it makes things less of an obligation. Anyhow everything nowadays seems to be happening quite naturally, with no exact destination as to where I am going or what I am doing. I guess it's because high school is inevitably ending in a month.

I found myself looking back at my high school past and reminiscing about alot of things, all the while thinking about how I got to where I am. Mixed feelings come to mind really, because I am feeling happy, sad, scared, and shocked at the same time. I remember freshmen registration, I went to register for classes and people I didn't talk to just said hello to me, because they hadn't seen me all summer. I had my first cellphone, a samsung barphone, which Lisa Phe also had. Then I remember telling myself high school would be different, I would change myself and work hard.

I then remember suddenly talking to Victor Chan at 5th period, and accepting his offer to run with him for ASB. I did not know what I was getting myself into, and all I knew was ASB was something that people wanted to be in. I also remember my brother's friend telling me "If you want to be successful in high school, join ASB". Well, once I joined I got myself into responsibilities I had never dealth with before, but I felt that I had to do the duties given to me. I started meeting people starting then, especially seniors.

Sophomore year...was interesting. I spent another year in ASB, and started developing the "close" friends amongst everyone I met. Kendrick, who I met through his sister, Eunice, through ASB became one of those close friends. He told me about ASB things that his sister tells her. I eventually became close friends with Betty, who I started talking to because she joined ASB that year. Cindy was another one, mainly because I needed a candidate to run with sophomore year, and Kendrick suggested her. Everything ended catastrophically sophomore year, and It was the first time I felt the stress of high school, friends, and everything.

Junior year was a year where I grew substantially. I stopped ASB, and began Cross-Country. Steven became a good friend to me, though we hadn't talk since 7th grade. I became part of the Cross Country family, and I spent my first year in A Cappella choir during junior year as well. My classes were little, and quite simple, so I ended up having time to create bonds with the people I knew. There were times when I realized that I truly was a teenager, especially when I thought about ridiculous things like cliques and stuff.

Now I come to my senior year, and it seems like I'm just finishing my high school year. All the things I was afraid of doing, I ended up doing all during this year. I finally met a girl that I feel especially close to, and I stood on stage, alone or with others, and I attempted to become Vice president of the whole school. Unfortunately, I have also felt a lack of interest in the things that interested me freshmen year. Dances aren't as fun, and I'd rather be home than wasting time sitting in the park with friends. I think that I am growing out of the old things and I don't want to. It feels like high school was only memorable because I tried my butt off to become someone I'd be happy to look at in the mirror. Now college is coming, and I am 4 hours away from home. I have only a handful of people that are going there with me, and they probably won't even see me that often. It's a time to start all over, but will I be able to enjoy it as I did high school? I don't know.